Whokay, I am gonna blabber something here as I woke up this morning and I was motivated to change a few aspects in my life. Have taken first step for one of the things this morning and I now I want to blabber did not want to talk to any of my friends or family members, hence this blog.
These days once again I am thinking about very basic questions, which I have seen hovering over my mind before too.
What is life?
What should one do to live the life in the most optimum/ideal way?
Why am I on this earth?
Is it by chance or was it a part of some plan as some people do seem to believe?
Everything becomes a routine, then howcome people managae to be happy always?
What keeps people going?
Can someone be truly happy without being spiritual?
Why is it so difficult to be a good person?
What is required to be a good person?
Why do we belittle stuff? Why can't we be respectful of stuff?
Is is true that we are what we think we are?
I am starting to feel little emptiness inside me again like I was feeling in usa. Its not at all as great as before but yet its there. I feel that I need to change something in my life. I feel I need to start to be a part of some social communnity and work towards some long term goal helping people in some way, create a difference. I know it all sounds very common and whoever is reading must have heard the exact same words before. I used to feel the same and I think I know now what someone means when they truly use these words. Well its just a thought, the solution to the emptiness inside can be something else but hey that's what exploration is all about, one does stuff knowingly or unknowingly and if one is observant enough a lot of pleasure/knowledge can be extracted through these. I need to start socializing more, my biggest turn on is people which brings out the good in me and my biggest turn off is people which brings out all the bad in me. What an irony! I understand now why it is said that how and why forgiveness is important. I think it is necessary to protect the good in oneself from external contamination and it makes one insensitive to external negative fluctuations. Buts it sure feels hard to practice. Whoa am lost in my thoughts, I think I should stop and work towards the stuff I decided this morning.
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
I wonder!!!
I am listening to the song: "Kal ho na ho" by Sonu Nigam on repeat for last 4-5 days now. Good song with good meaning and sung very well by Sonu Nigam. Don't trust me? Watch and listen it yourself
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chf5uvR9n7o
My favourite line from the song:
Par soch lo, is pal hai jo, wo daastaan kal ho na ho. THOUGHT PROVOKING PHRASE!!!
It reminds me of the statement Steve Jobs said in his speech during a commencement at Stanford. He said:
"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important thing I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important."
That whole speech was intense, if stuff like this gives you a kick, that speech is a must watch. It is here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA
Anyway, I watched the movie "Kal ho na ho" again just because of the song. It is weird how human mind works. How it can come up with different conclusions for the same thing at different times governed by different circumstances. I remember that last time when I had seen the movie I was not so much into it, rather I found it cheesy. This time, I liked it far better than the last time.
On and off, I wonder that the passion/attraction for stuff(that I am passionate about or I am attracted to) is inside me or outside me? This question originated once in a phone conversation with Devki (a very good friend of mine). Anyway, I am not sure if it is inside or outside, but as of now I feel it has to be inside. So if it is inside me, then how does it work? If it is inside then does it mean that there is a switch inside which I can turn on and I will be able to feel the same way for everything in this world? Obviously, the world we live in is full of beautiful things, yet we are attracted to some of them, not to all. Why? Is it because we have little time in our hand to explore? Is it the state of mind which depends on circumstances? What is it? Next time I feel repulsion for something, I need to think about it as to why it is happening.
Life gets interesting!!!
I am in bangalore now and this is fifth time I have moved in last 1.5 years. Too much moving, but I am liking it so far!!!
In feb 06, I moved from Ohio to NJ, then from NJ to NY, then from NY to MI the from MI to Jaipur and now to Bangalore. Every time I have moved, I have observed ephemeral mixed feelings about the new place/old place during the moving phase, which is obvious. After stuff repeating itself for the fifth time, I wonder why can't it be hardwired into my system to just skip this transition part and not let my mind think about it? Though, thinking is good and it helps towards development, but still, my question is can something like this be hardwired through practice? I think it can be. I think all my questions are suggesting that I need to read about how human brain works.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chf5uvR9n7o
My favourite line from the song:
Par soch lo, is pal hai jo, wo daastaan kal ho na ho. THOUGHT PROVOKING PHRASE!!!
It reminds me of the statement Steve Jobs said in his speech during a commencement at Stanford. He said:
"Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important thing I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life, because almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important."
That whole speech was intense, if stuff like this gives you a kick, that speech is a must watch. It is here:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D1R-jKKp3NA
Anyway, I watched the movie "Kal ho na ho" again just because of the song. It is weird how human mind works. How it can come up with different conclusions for the same thing at different times governed by different circumstances. I remember that last time when I had seen the movie I was not so much into it, rather I found it cheesy. This time, I liked it far better than the last time.
On and off, I wonder that the passion/attraction for stuff(that I am passionate about or I am attracted to) is inside me or outside me? This question originated once in a phone conversation with Devki (a very good friend of mine). Anyway, I am not sure if it is inside or outside, but as of now I feel it has to be inside. So if it is inside me, then how does it work? If it is inside then does it mean that there is a switch inside which I can turn on and I will be able to feel the same way for everything in this world? Obviously, the world we live in is full of beautiful things, yet we are attracted to some of them, not to all. Why? Is it because we have little time in our hand to explore? Is it the state of mind which depends on circumstances? What is it? Next time I feel repulsion for something, I need to think about it as to why it is happening.
Life gets interesting!!!
I am in bangalore now and this is fifth time I have moved in last 1.5 years. Too much moving, but I am liking it so far!!!
In feb 06, I moved from Ohio to NJ, then from NJ to NY, then from NY to MI the from MI to Jaipur and now to Bangalore. Every time I have moved, I have observed ephemeral mixed feelings about the new place/old place during the moving phase, which is obvious. After stuff repeating itself for the fifth time, I wonder why can't it be hardwired into my system to just skip this transition part and not let my mind think about it? Though, thinking is good and it helps towards development, but still, my question is can something like this be hardwired through practice? I think it can be. I think all my questions are suggesting that I need to read about how human brain works.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Bluesy Mind
I am lil bit down for past 3 days. The reasons are thoughts/worries from/about the past/future. I know and I have experienced that thinking/worrying about stuff outside one's zone of influence doesn't help, but sometimes it just becomes unavoidable I guess. May be the reason for all this is that I have too much free time in my hand as I am on a vacation.
I personally am a big fan of tough times. I have been in them repeatedly for last 3-4 years and have gotten a chance to deal with them alone. Being alone and far from the family in these situations was a good thing as it gave me an opportunity to explore my own self. I am a fan because I think depending on the way one deals with them, a lot of wisdom has been imparted by the time they end. The amazing thing is that when I think back about any particular tough time I have been into, I wonder why was I so worked up then. This may be because the way human mind works (a lot more needs to be explored about it). As if I think today about something in the past, I am into a different state of mind and also all the dots defining that particular incident have been connected. But still, I feel that there is a good learning involved here. If one knows or if one can explain to himself that he/she will be okay in time then it can relieve worries. Why to be tensed or worked up about stuff if you can avoid it? After realising it, I have tried to implement it in a few situations. It worked like a charm in some while it was easier said that done in the rest.
Another great learning which I have come across (and have almost embibed in myself) through my experiences in the past is "Never Regret" Give everything a thought before doing, evaluate the possible consequences, think about the worst one and see if you can satisfy yourself in it and you will be fine. Of course, it is not so simple to put this philosohy into practice. It takes time and effort. Whenever I think/talk about "never regret" thing, one song comes to my mind. I love the two following stanzas of this old song from the movie: "Hum Dono"
Barbadiyon ka shok manana fizool tha,
Jo ho gaya mai usko bhulata chala gaya
Gam aur khushi mein fark na mehsoos ho jahan
Mai dil ko us makaam pe laata chala gaya
It always gives me goosebumps!
I personally am a big fan of tough times. I have been in them repeatedly for last 3-4 years and have gotten a chance to deal with them alone. Being alone and far from the family in these situations was a good thing as it gave me an opportunity to explore my own self. I am a fan because I think depending on the way one deals with them, a lot of wisdom has been imparted by the time they end. The amazing thing is that when I think back about any particular tough time I have been into, I wonder why was I so worked up then. This may be because the way human mind works (a lot more needs to be explored about it). As if I think today about something in the past, I am into a different state of mind and also all the dots defining that particular incident have been connected. But still, I feel that there is a good learning involved here. If one knows or if one can explain to himself that he/she will be okay in time then it can relieve worries. Why to be tensed or worked up about stuff if you can avoid it? After realising it, I have tried to implement it in a few situations. It worked like a charm in some while it was easier said that done in the rest.
Another great learning which I have come across (and have almost embibed in myself) through my experiences in the past is "Never Regret" Give everything a thought before doing, evaluate the possible consequences, think about the worst one and see if you can satisfy yourself in it and you will be fine. Of course, it is not so simple to put this philosohy into practice. It takes time and effort. Whenever I think/talk about "never regret" thing, one song comes to my mind. I love the two following stanzas of this old song from the movie: "Hum Dono"
Barbadiyon ka shok manana fizool tha,
Jo ho gaya mai usko bhulata chala gaya
Gam aur khushi mein fark na mehsoos ho jahan
Mai dil ko us makaam pe laata chala gaya
It always gives me goosebumps!
Saturday, July 7, 2007
Mysterious Song
Salute to Pink Floyd's "Coming back to life." Whenever I listen to it, depending on the mood, I attach to it a different perspective, as if the song engulfs many different moods in it. In the past, it has made me feel nostalgic, inspired, sad, happy etc. Amazing solo by David Gilmour makes me wanna learn it. But alas, it needs some time input from my side and right now I don't feel that I am motivated to do that.
What a creation!!!
What a creation!!!
Friday, July 6, 2007
Indian Art Movies (Griha Pravesh and Ijaazat)
This week, I saw a few hindi movies, which had amused me at some point of time. One of them was Griha Pravesh. I vaguely recall, I had watched it for the first time may be about 12-13 years ago and I remember that I was charged up philosophically by its deep and laconic ending (SIMPLE AMAZING!!!). It is about a married couple (Sharmila Tagore and Sanjeev Kumar) with a baby boy. Sharmila has a dream of living in her own house; she is saving money to buy a place and is living a very simple and a frugal life with her family. Sanjeev meets a young girl (Sarika) at his work and things grow between them. With time, Sanjeev and Sarika develop a perfect chemistry and Sanjeev decides to talk to his wife about marrying Sarika. Sharmila decides to let his husband go with Sarika and requests her husband to introduce Sarika to her once. Sanjeev invites Sarika for dinner to meet his wife. The sequence after it can't be put into words. Finally, as can be expected Sanjeev realises his blunder and comes back to his wife. The plot sounds very simple, but the presentation of the movie, the dialogues and the characters are intense and thoughtful.
Another movie which I watched was Ijaazat. Again, a very intense movie. The movie is about two people (Rekha and Naseerudin Shah) who were married to each other a few years ago and are not together anymore. They happen to meet each other in a waiting room of a train station and the movie runs in flashback. Before Rekha and Naseer were married, Naseer was involved in a relationship with a girl named Maya. Maya's love for Naseer is different. She is a girl with modern views and wants to stay together but does not want to get married. Maya comes and goes in Naseer's life and eventually Naseer decides to get married to Rekha. It is nicely picturized how Rekha, after marrying Naseer finds traces of Maya in Naseer's house/heart/life and how it affects their relationship, how circumstances can create a big gap in a relationship inspite of the fact that the two people involved are patient and
understanding. A must see for people who enjoy Indian art movies.
My words here don't do any justice with the depth of these movies. I am so fascinated/amused/intrigued by them that I can say that I am lucky to be able to have the understanding to appreciate them.
Another movie which I watched was Ijaazat. Again, a very intense movie. The movie is about two people (Rekha and Naseerudin Shah) who were married to each other a few years ago and are not together anymore. They happen to meet each other in a waiting room of a train station and the movie runs in flashback. Before Rekha and Naseer were married, Naseer was involved in a relationship with a girl named Maya. Maya's love for Naseer is different. She is a girl with modern views and wants to stay together but does not want to get married. Maya comes and goes in Naseer's life and eventually Naseer decides to get married to Rekha. It is nicely picturized how Rekha, after marrying Naseer finds traces of Maya in Naseer's house/heart/life and how it affects their relationship, how circumstances can create a big gap in a relationship inspite of the fact that the two people involved are patient and
understanding. A must see for people who enjoy Indian art movies.
My words here don't do any justice with the depth of these movies. I am so fascinated/amused/intrigued by them that I can say that I am lucky to be able to have the understanding to appreciate them.
Thursday, July 5, 2007
Yummy Indian Food
Today I went to the revolving restaurant in jaipur with my elder sister, brother-in-law and my nephews. We had dinner at the topmost floor of that restaurant and got a very nice view of jaipur. It was after 3 years I ate in an indian restaurant in india. Oh man, was the food amazing or what ... we had dal fry, kadhai paneer and malai kofta with an indian-style salad and I realised how good the indian food in India is ... I wouldn't go too far saying that indian food in usa was bad, but the one in India is far better!!! People who know me personally can guess how stuffed I was after having that food :-P. Also, from the topmost floor, I could see that how much jaipur has developed in last 3 yrs ... traffic and pollution are still a problem but it is pleasant to see that the things are moving in the right direction. I am very eager to see how Bangalore has changed in last 3 yrs ...
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