Ghazals ...

Dang, so many lines are coming on and off in my mind today ...

-- koi ye kaise bataye ki wo tanha kyu hai ... wo jo apna tha wahi aur kisi ka kyu hai ... yehi duniya hai to phir aisi ye duniya kyu hai ... yehi hota hai to aakhir yehi hota kyu hai ...

-- jise bhi dekhiye wo apne aap mein ghum hai ... jubaan mili hai magar humjubaan nahi milta ...

-- jeene ke liye socha hi nahi dard sambhalne honge ... muskuraaye to muskuraane ke karz utaarne honge ... muskuraoon kabhi to lagta hai jaise hothon pe karz rakha hai ...

-- hum bhatakte hai ... kyu bhatakte hai ... dashto sehra mein ... aisa lagta hai mauj pyaasi hai apne dariya mein ... kaisi uljhan hai kyu ye uljhan hai ... ek saaya sa ... rubaru kya hai ..

-- ranz aur dard ki basti ka mai baashinda hoon ... ye to bas mai hoon ki is haal mein bhi zinda hoon ... khaab kyu dekhoo wo kal jispe mai sharmina hoon ...

-- ye bata de mujhe zindagi ... pyaar ki raah ke humsafar kis tarah ban gaye ajnabi ... phool kyu saare murjha gaye ... kis liye bhuj gayi chandni ...

-- kab mili thi kahan bichdi thi ... humein yaad nahi ... zindagi tujhko to bas khaab mein dekha humne ...

-- is dil mein bas kar dekho to .... ye shahar bada puraana hai ...

-- ek andhera laakh sitaare ... ek niraasha laakh sahare ... sabse badi saugaat hai jeevan ... nadan hai jo jeevan se haare ...

-- har ek jism ghayal ... har ik rooh pyaasi ... nigahon mein uljhan ... dilo mein udaasi ..

People!!!

I love airports. They are full of life! Today my flight got delayed by 3 hours and I spent all that time at bangalore airport strlloing in the parking lot and thinking. I had not slept last night so it was funner. I was just walking and looking at people around every now and then. Some of them looked happy, some were normal and some looked sad. I was comfortably immersed in my thoughts with my eyes and ears engaged. Suddenly a weird thought occurred to me - what if suddenly all the voices and people are removed from the scene? When I imagined that I got uncomfortable and felt like I dont know what to do, where to go ... I was not thinking anymore ... ever sat in a bar/restaurent in off-peak hours when there is no one except waitors?

Seems like there is some connection even with the people we dont know or we will know ever. What is this connection? This reminds me of one situation about 10 years ago when I was preparing for the iit-jee exams ... I was studying fluid mechanics and nothing of it was going into my head ... I was kinda scared that day about me not able to make it to any iits and was alone at home ... I just decided that I will go to some park and study ... there were a few people in the park and I sat in park and studied for 4-5 hours ... I felt very comfortable and the fright thing just disappeared ... I did not even think of anything negative once I was there ... The point is may be back then I knew this thing about being comfortable in crowd but it never occurred to me like it did today. Another thing occurred to me, that such environments encourage me to be creative ... While walking, I was thinking of starting to write short stories and many sorts of plots were coming to my mind ... though they were little hazy but they were there ... I still need to work on getting this creative me out of myself ... I know its there!